hmmm.. got my results back already... but i'm still not very satisfied with it... i prayed and prayed and hoped for the best.. i thought that i would be able to get into CJC, which i thought was the right JC for me. but at the end of the day, i do know that what has happened, has already happened, and i also do believe in fate. i may have to go through this twice (PSLE and O Levels), but i think that through each cycle, god seemed to be telling me something...

this time, i guess i get his message. i learnt my lesson in from sec 3 to O Levels. i really mustn't take time for granted. time is invaluable. its priceless. so what if my studies suck now? it doesn't really matter. so long as i have the will to pick myself up, so long as i am ready to play my life properly, so long as i learn my lesson, so long as i will not repeat history, i believe that there is always a chance for me to excel! a chance for me to proof of my existence, and the importance of my existence..

i must make a change and move on with my JC life, be it good or bad, just accept the fact and move on. what is the point of clinging on to something that is not worth wasting your energy? at the same time, i am also going to sure that i do not let history repeat it self. chinese was one which i was not able to accept, lesson learned. i picked myself up and re-sit for the paper. i dare not say too much as i sort of gave up along the way, but to be able to produce that results when i had only started studying 2 days before the chi o level papers is considered good enough already.

as for the other subjects, some i started studying just before the prelims, while some others just before the o level papers itself. therefore to boost my potential, i will make sure i start studying and start my nerd life the moment i get a chance to. even if it takes giving up my free time, part of my social life.. well, can't be all my social life, cause i still need my contacts.. but, God, do stay by my side and never leave me. guide me to plan my life well and be able to prioritise my activities.

of course, i will seize every possible opportunities which i meet or come across. i will excel, not solely because i can, but more of because I BELIEVE! thus, i'll make sure i'll do my best and really my best this time round. i will not waste anymore time and chances which are thrown to me repeatedly.

all this is because i still believe that there is an inner spark within me, waiting to be ignited! and also just because I BELIEVE!!